Wednesday, June 14, 2006

Letting Go

Last night I was laying in bed and worrying about money. How stupid a thing to worry about, after all the provision we've been given. And yet....once again, I am worrying. A thought came to mind of something I had heard the week I found out I was pregnant. Our church had a ladies retreat, and the speaker talked about taking our fears (which is the root of worry) to God. She actually had us put IN our hand the fear that we had, and lift it up to God. At that time, I took my hand, placed it on my belly where my baby was developing and then handed it to God. I had forgotten I had done that until just last night.

God was reminding me that everything I've ever had, was already His to begin with. I struggle to let Him have my most prized possessions daily. I kind of become my own God, assuming ownership of all the things I see around me, and guarding them with my life, as if I have all the control in the universe. My kids are not my own. They're only here for a short moment, to love, teach, and share life with, and then soon, they'll go on. They'll have to live life without me beside them, controlling each moment of their day. The more I remember to give them to God now, the easier it will be to let go as they grow up.....and away.

I'm finding it easier to trust God's plan with each passing day. I'm more aware of what precious gifts I've been given in my 2 healthy, adorable children. I'm cherishing the time I'm planning to spend with them this summer, just having fun. I'm finding myself once again....so so very blessed to have so many that love me, comfort me and pray for me. You are how God shows me His great love. Thank you.

"Praise be to the God and Father of our Lord Jesus Christ, the Father of compassion and the God of all comfort, who comforts us in all our troubles, so that we can comfort those in any trouble with the comfort we ourselves have received from God. For just as the sufferings of Christ flow over into our lives, so also through Christ our comfort overflows. If we are distressed, it is for your comfort and salvation; if we are comforted, it is for your comfort, which produces in you patient endurance of the same sufferings we suffer. And our hope for you is firm, because we know that just as you share in our sufferings, so also you share in our comfort." I Corinthians 1:3-7